Life as I had lived it for eleven years was over and all of a sudden I had to find a new place to live. Fast. In short, I had been towered.
The Tower is the 16th card in the Major Arcana of the Tarot. Some of the key words associated with this card are: Chaos, Crisis, Disruption, Disillusionment, Crash, and other super fun things like that.
This towering was no exception. It was all of that and more. One thing it wasn't, though, was unfamiliar. We all get change thrust upon us, don't we?
It isn't fun, but it usually isn't fatal either. And this time, along with weeping and bemoaning my fate and going through all the stages that Candy outlined in her post, I am determined to embrace my new life. To find not just a new place to live but a new identity.
I didn't ask for this midlife crisis but now that it's here, I'm going to make the most of it.
First things first, I just moved in to my new living situation. Everything is new and discombobulating. I spent the weekend finding my hair brush and other vital things and shuffling around the house, trying to get used to it. This afternoon my friend and I walked down to the Starbucks (a writer thing you either understand or don't) then I spent the evening making sure I have everything I'll need in the morning for work.
I'll spend the next few weeks continuing to unpack and sort and stow. I got rid of a lot of "stuff" before the move, but I plan to get rid of a good deal more. I don't know a lot about the new identity I'm working on, but I do know I want it to be lighter. Faster on my feet.
And that one of the key words associated with it will be: Writer.
Next time I post I'll come prepared with a picture of my new writing space.
I'd have posted some this time if I could find my camera . . .
Take those lemons and make some schnapps!
ReplyDeleteEvie, here's to your evolving new identity, to traveling with a lighter load, and to reclaiming your writing mojo.
You can do it!
LOL, Keely! Lemon schnapps indeed. Being single definitely has its attractions.
ReplyDeleteGreat post Evie. You'd think after a million years homo sapiens would be more open to change but sadly we are not and change --even good change--is difficult.
ReplyDeleteI've often found setting out Tarot cards is a good way to reflect & explore where I am & where I'm going.
Here's hoping you enjoy your new digs, new life, and find the writing flows1
Love it, Evie! You have survived your towering well. And I'm very excited to see where the new journey, the new life, and the new identity lead you this coming year. All good things to you in your new home and going forward into the new year! Great post. ;0)
ReplyDeleteThanks Shellie! Tarot cards, to me, are like ink blots. They connect to stuff you're already thinking about, under the surface.
ReplyDeleteI did survive it, Candy. Now that the chaos of the Big Move is over, the little chaotic things are settling in and they are a drag, but I definitely survived the big shake up. Onward!
ReplyDeleteThe beautiful thing about falling from the tower is it gets our feet on the ground. From there, we can reach for the stars.
ReplyDeleteI CAN'T wait to see your snapshot of your new writing space, Evie! As you say, Onward! And don't forget there are plenty of us willing to walk by your side along the way.
Evie, you've done such an amazing job at getting all of this organized in such a short time. I think that you have landed with cat-like grace after your fall from the Tower. I wish everything good for you, always, and look forward in being your friend throughout the journey.
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